Chapter 6: Mum i want to be a Dj

I am about to deal with you this point of infringement that made the difference in my life, which marked an after and before in my life. A normal day for me in Sant Feliu was a fairly normal a monotonous life. On morning I went to the electronics classes, and on the evenings I spent my time with my friend Kike playing the maximum hours as possible at home.

What I was studying didn't motivate me at all, and I only thought about to get home for more practice. Being in other places stole me many hours of practice. (Actually I think that the only thing that I liked to go to the institute, was that I could get free tapes to then sell them ... LOL )

I didn't feel me comfortable or identified with the people from my neighborhood that surrounded me. I always been a very independent kid. I'm talking about personality to choose my own  clothes style. In those moments was when "El pelao" fashion style exploded here. It was brand boom like: Lonsdale, Scottish Clan, Fred Perry, Adidas, without ignoring the mythical Alpha jacket!

In my village almost all kids were dressed as well. Clothes are not a meaning of personality, but some people associate this with fascism. (A point of view that I never shared) I wore wide clothes. And this created a bad image for "pelaos" which surrounded me, because for them I was a weird guy that didn't used to meet with them as a herd that walketh without any direction.

One thing that made me got angry, was to see the interest from people when they knew that I was Dj.

Could have been like a normal class day, but it was not at all. That day marked a before and an after in my way of seeing things and would be decisive for the way that I really wanted to choose.

It was the last class of the day. It was the kind of workshop and our teacher ordered us to all the students to do an electrical panel that consisted of a wooden board in that we had to do a circuit with cables, a bulb, and at the end of the table we had to turn it on. However many times that he repeated me the process I couldn't understand it or do it.

Annoyed me much, and I felt a complete useless while listening my colleagues to say: "I have already finished! I'm done!!" All my partners … except me,  I never even had begun. My impotence was growing by seconds and I didn't even know where to start to work.

At the end of the class, teacher told me not to worry about it, that was not the only who had not managed to conclude this exercise. While I walked toward home. I wondered to myself: "Dany, do you want this? Does this motivate you? You want this for your life really??" My concern was so hard that I just wanted to give it up, and then I thought: "I don't want to be this, I want to be a Dj! Now when I get home I will tell them that I'm going to leave the Institute."

While I repeat this to myself again and again, I also became aware of the situation that I was going to live at home at the moment to give to my family this news. I got home and my parents and brothers were sitting on the table. While we were eating I was looking for the opportune moment to explain them my intentions
In the midst of a silence I told them : "I have something to say " (everyone in silence looked at me expectantly to hear the folly that I was going to pronounce..)

And this was when I said: "I want to leave the institute, I am not happy with what I'm doing." They were all alarmed, my brothers start to joke with phrases like: "Good Another one more to ample the group!" since they had not been good students either.

My father, who was very seriously, asked me: "And what do you think to do? Because if leave your studies you'll have to work, or to look up something to do." Then I said the phrase that would change even more the whole course of this conversation. "Because I ... I want to be a Dj! I want to dedicate myself to this" . All of them told me: "Wake up! Low to this world Dany! It's a very hard world and very difficult to live for! The world of the night is not a nice place to work"

These phrases made me angry and I told them: "I don't care what you say, or what you think! I will not  ask you for money or help! I want to be Dj!" I lift from the table without having finished my supper, and I went to my room to play trying to let me out all the anger that I felt at that moment.

Meanwhile, one by one, went into my room to let me see my desire from another point of view, their personal point of view. And they tried to make me believe that my decision was a madness!

Even my brothers who had also been Dj's, and had worked in some club. I thought perhaps they would support me in my decision but it was quite the opposite. They are who were more opposed to my decision

Later I spoke with my mother, and she wonder me why I had taken that decision? She said to me: "Don't you think that you're getting very far with your fantasy." I answered her: " I know that can looks a little crazy, and I am aware that I am not going to get my dream in two days. But only I ask you to be patience. Maybe in two years or more I'll be coming true my dream, to be a professional DJ".

She tried to change my decision, but I was very clear about my intentions for the future. Although they tried to change my mind, they wouldn't get it. The only thing that they get was to increase my desire to show the world that I wanted to be an authentic DJ profesional.

In the afternoon I decided to meet me with my friends, seeking for their support, and encouraging words. I explain them the conversation that I had with my family, and their lack of support. The words from my friends were on a similar way than my family opinion. I remember that my friend Felipe told me: "Dany, you know that I am with you. I told you for million times that you're a genius playing, and your mixes are awesome. But I think that your family is right. This world is very difficult and I don't want to see you disappointed with yourself.

Right now thinking on all these words, I think there were natural advices coming from people that appreciated you. They just tried to protect me about could have been a blow to my life.

But none of these words that they said made me doubt from my purpose. I had only one objective in mind for my life, and I was decide to fulfill my dream.

None of the words which told me my loved ones got me change my decision.

I had already taken a decision and the time had come to work on it more than ever. I was decide to fight to get it. I was sure it was going to get sooner

I...

Wanted to be a DJ!!!